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Mar. 11th, 2010 @ 10:49 pm Been a long time comming
Current Mood: depresseddepressed
This will be my first post here in gods, going on 5-6 years I think. Kinda funny that I come back and decide to post again after so long, but here I am.


I'm posting this because I need to get this out, and I kinda need it to be seen.

I feel like I am alone, I know that everyone has their own shyte to deal with, but I truly feel like I have been replaced in the lives of basically everyone I thought was close to me. It seems that all of my closest friends have moved on to other people rather than sticking by me. I know this all sounds emo, but I am depressed so fuck you.

Everyone wants to know that I want them in my life, which I can understand, but it seems to me that nobody really wants me in theirs. Again, I understand that everyone has their shyte, but Gods damn-it, people think that I don't need to know I am wanted/needed around... But I DO need to know. My friends don't seem to fathom how alone and worthless I've been feeling over the past couple of months. I feel trapped. I'm BARELY making enough money just to survive on my own because I keep getting screwed for hours at work. 

A small part of me wishes for death.


I hope that moving to Toronto will help. I know I have a friend or two there, but even still, I know that they probably couldn't care less if I was around. I'm just tired of not being good enough, be it for friends or employers.


Well, I expect I will receive a great many "angsty cupcake" or "aw muffin" type comments, but I could care less at this point.
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Feb. 28th, 2007 @ 12:55 pm Yarr
Current Mood: awakeawake
I haven't checked this much in the past couple years, so I thought I'd put something... Seems as though most of my friends here are gone though...
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May. 21st, 2005 @ 11:16 pm (no subject)
Your Star Wars Pickup Line

"In time, you will call me.....Master."



( boredom )
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May. 14th, 2005 @ 01:03 pm Hatching-Day
Well, it is the anniversary of my hatching.... And I would also like to wish a merry Hatching day to the Maggy.

I went to see Hitchhikers last night, wow. I loved the movie, now I have to read the book. That is al for now, I'm not feeling exceptionally verbose today.
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May. 13th, 2005 @ 08:53 pm (no subject)
You scored as Faerie. Faerie: Aren't you a cute little flying person? Faeries are earth spirits. They live among each element completely hidden. They have cousins called Pixies. Pixies however, are very mischevious. They enjoy tormenting other creatures for fun. Little pranksters.. I hope you never meet one. Pixies have a bad reputation for finding a creature and clinging to them until death. Faeries can be somewhat close to a Pixie, but mostly they are loving, playful, and carry with them a child-like enthusiasm for life. Hide among the pedals of a Daisy, you are a Faerie.

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Faerie

84%

Demon

67%

Angel

58%

Dragon

50%

WereWolf

42%

Mermaid

33%

What Mythological Creature are you? (Cool Pics!)
created with QuizFarm.com
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Apr. 28th, 2005 @ 01:21 am (no subject)
The spaces between the spaces, in the aether of dreams we see them. Their bodyless forms floating, shifting, turning. The essence of all and none, the divine and the mundane, positive and negative... the list goes on. The lights flashing behind your eyes show recognition, you can see the spaces, pockets filled with nothingness, yet overful with that nothingness. The experiences of our lives, our potential, shown in an instant, and gone in a flash, to be recorded on nothing other than a grain of rice. That seed, flourishing within your mind, bringing all sorts of Ideas, New, yet already done, a vacation, yet you don't need to pack. A life within a life, to do with what you will.
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Apr. 21st, 2005 @ 12:18 pm (no subject)


Your Element Is Earth



You excel at planning and strategizing.
You could be a champ at chess or Survivor.

Well grounded, you are able to be realistic and rationalize.
On the inside, you have a hard core. It's tough to phase you.

You are super productive, and you are able to think anything through.
Focused and super charged, your instincts are a good guide for your next step.


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Apr. 20th, 2005 @ 01:43 pm Pointless


Your Japanese Name Is...









Raidon Saito



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Apr. 11th, 2005 @ 01:05 pm (no subject)
( a bit long )
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Mar. 31st, 2005 @ 01:53 am (no subject)
Short Sword
You preferred a weapon with 41% power over speed and 21% range over melee.
You use a Short Sword.

Stylish and deadly, a short sword, sabre or rapier is your weapon of choice. You are well aware that an edged weapon puts you a cut above the rabble, but you also keep your blade relatively small to give you the quickness you need to stay on top. Your opponents seldom see your attacks coming, and by the time they could have regained their senses, they are all dead.




My test tracked 2 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:
You scored higher than 52% on power
You scored higher than 21% on range
Link: The What's Your Signature Weapon Test written by inurashii on Ok Cupid
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